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Feelings of The Heart

2009-08-31T04:37:00.002+08:00

Have anyone ever wondered how much one's heart can take? Well, I for sure know that it has been a LONG as bumpy ride for mine...it always ponders in my mind...how much can I take? How long can I wait? Sometimes I just fail to find the words to explain & express how it feels deep down inside...and the worst part is...you see people around you...people you know, people you're close to, people that might be directly or indirectly involved in your life...and guess what?? I just can't stop the tears...yeah...call me a wimp...a pussy...a loser...call me emo...I guess that's just the way life works...you can't get everything you want & you wish or desire for...

Looking back in time
I should have told you I needed you so
Looking back in time
I still remember the look of your eyes

But I, I should have told you
I loved you before
And I, I didn't mean to
Deny that I was wrong

Without you
I was lost
I'm sorry
I never meant any harm
Being forced into this madness
I tried to back down
I tried to hold on
Looking back in time...

These are just a part of the lyrics from the very first song I composed in my life...I'm still searching for the inspiration and motivation that prompted me to write those words...
Can I NOT look back in time?? Can I only look forward and not look back??
I guess the label of being a sponge does suit me correctly...who is going to know what's inside this little heart of mine? How much it can actually take...how far I can strive...how long I will be patient...I'm hurting...it really really REALLY hurts...I'm really sorry, didn't mean any harm at all...but in a way, I guess I was really forced into this, the only difference this time...I'm not even going to TRY to back down or hold on...because I don't want to look back in time...I want to open my eyes to what's going to be installed for me...& PROBABLY you in the future...
I'm lost...seriously I am...& I guess I probably need a compass to guide myself out from this little lost heart of mine...

Sorry is ALL I can say for now

2009-08-09T14:33:00.002+08:00

There are times when SORRY seems to be the only word that I can think of.....
Last night, we organized a simple drinking session as part of our celebrations in conjunction with winning the TWO BIG AWARDS at the ASTRO NCA '09....5 bottles of Chivas.....2 cartons of beer...
Yeah....that was a lot man.... everyone was happy till I probably screwed myself up for over drinking....

This post is to tell YOU how sorry I am for ruining last night, I know I've no right whatsoever to explain or to defend myself...but the truth is.... I was really happy and it was an occasion to celebrate after winning BIG at NCA and also the seniors' Convo yesterday..... no matter what I say....I know that there's no excuse or reason for me to drink like that....

Please forgive me....I'm still the same guy I am....I'm truly sorry from the bottom of my heart....

ASTRO NCA 2009

2009-08-07T16:42:00.008+08:00

**Snaps fingers**.... Just like that, the ASTRO Nextgen Contentpreneur Awards 2009 has come to an end....life is really funny isn't it? Things come, things go... the memories & the moments last night at the Sime Darby Convention Centre in Mont Kiara doesn't come very often... the people that attended the function, the events that happened there... the tears of joy & sorrow... the people that attended to show you their support....everything has to come to an end... sometimes I just wish that I could turn back the hands of time to go through certain events in life again....and again...
The atmosphere there was awesome...probably my first time attending the NCA...we went thru nervous moments and spells... and finally.....

WE DID IT! Tidal Tales won TWO BIG awards for Phenomenal Art Direction & Revolutionary Documentary at the ASTRO NCA 2009!!!! Congrats to Quek & Mark!!!!!

As for Mark....Bro....FUCK it man....our MV is one of the top THREE in Malaysia.... I'm sure you're gonna win it next year when you submit again!!! =)

Look at all the sexy ladies that came to support us.... luckily we didn't let you all down! =P

Eve.... I guess your lucky charms DID work out.... =)) Thanx..... :)))

Oh well.... so much for now then... will try to keep everyone MORE updated about everything.... till the next time.... congratulations again to the crew and cast of TIDAL TALES & I JUST CAME BY TO SAY I'M SORRY =))))))

The Birth of My Blog

2009-08-02T19:46:00.003+08:00

hahahahaha...I seriously can't believe it, I'm starting to blog now, from nowhere, while reading some blog posts from some of my friends, I've decided to finally start blogging moments of my life to share with YOU, dear readers' of my glimpses of my life and the things that occur in it....

As of now, I'm sitting here in the town of Kuantan, waiting for production of the project I'm currently working on, a TVC to begin...everyone's just resting and I'm finding it a lil boring compared to Club 91 Productions of my recently finished shooting short film...entitled A Tale of Two Minds....As I'm gearing up for the shoot in probably 30 mins time, I think I shall sign off now... and come back to this later....so....a very simple opening welcome to "Simply Adrian's" blogspot and I wish you happy reading in sharing moments of my happy, yet sometimes pathetic lil life....Thanks...